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Let us take you on a journey into the things I never knew were there and am now tempted to throw away. They
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op—heads. foil. thick red twine. tiny elephant apron. four Chinese paper banners. one royal orange hand towel with fruit shapes. ordered. never noticed until now, yellow kitchen towel, (now in service). two 45 mil round lamp mini replacement bulbs. one more Chinese banner. a tub of winter food for citrus trees . . .
. . . a roll of fax paper too wide. One that I have to saw with a kitchen bread-knife to make it approx. six mils less wide — thin centre tube and all — usually in three sittings or sessions of sawing. It acts as a measure of how detcnnined I am. yet only within an action that wouldn‘t happen if I was more determined to go and shop for fax paper outside of my own area and extremely local locale. In other words. if I had been more determined. I am not. and yet I have chosen to be not determined. That is. I never deem it enough to go specifically outside my area for fax paper or even suddenly go ‘Fax paper‘ while passing Menzies.
That is the last time I use the letter The second last time was in Menzies. Once more then and that‘s it. It is broken because my wee boy Felix got a snatch for it. He had been waiting and waiting for an opening with stealth like a boxer and like a poker player too. And the contrast after the waiting compared with the waiting: huge. He grabbed up three keys: a shift. a ‘stroke‘ key and the zed too.
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